Hills still suck, but they're worth it

Song of the Day: "The Maker" - Chris August
Miles Ran: 1.5
Time: 20:01
Minutes per Mile: 13:19
Calories Burned: 154

I don't know if you can see, but I am sweating so hard in that picture. Today's run was just as hard as the past ones, but I did the route a little bit different and I think I'll stick with this new way. It was a bit easier and I felt like it worked a lot better than what I have been doing.

Spring break is almost over, which means that I have got to get my butt in gear and finish my homework that's due Monday. The biggest issue I have with being an English major is that it's a lot of sitting and reading. Don't get me wrong, I love reading, but reading three books in a day is a little much, even for me. Plus, I have to take notes and write responses and all that jazz.

I also have to go grocery shopping and stock up for the week. I really need to utilize my crock pot. Well, if I'm being honest, I need to do a lot of stuff. So, I'm going to stop writing and get it done.

Hills suck

Oh man. I think part of me died on my run. Twenty minutes. Of course I alternated between running and power walking, as the Color Run workout demonstrates from my previous post, but still. Where I'm living now is very hilly and so I was working a lot harder than I normally would. Plus, the altitude is higher here than it is where I'm from. A lot more work.

This was great though. Today was perfect running conditions -- cloudy and cool. I could wear my running jacket, but I didn't need pants. My shorts sufficed. I even found a little trail that leads to another neighborhood, so I think I'm going to stick with that one for now. It's super hilly and very exhausting, but at least I have some routine now. The trail is paved and seems to be part of a trail system, but I don't think it is, or at least not anymore. I saw two people using it today, another running and a biker, so that's comforting that it's used.

I would post the screenshot, but I'm very comfortable sitting in front of my open door, attempting to cool down. So, here's the stats:

Post running selfie

• 1.52 miles
• 20:01 minutes
• 13:09 miles/minute (which is not bad considering that I'm super out of shape and the hills killed me)
• 159 calories burned

I think I'll start posting the stats at the beginning of the posts, like I used to. I'm also going to share my running music, which is Christian worship music. It's upbeat and very positive. It definitely helps me to get motivated.

Today is a relaxation day, complete with a nice bath, facial, and I'm also going to soak my feet. I need to get some stuff done, so I'll do it before so all my pampering feels that much better. I found a lot of cool DIY facial masks and foot soaks, so I'm going to try that and take some time for myself. I have been doing that most of this week, as it's spring break, but I've been wanting a nice bath for a while now. Maybe I'll post those too, especially the foot soak for those who need something to help those sore feet.

March 15, 2015

Today, I went on a run. It was terrible. I was out of breath the whole time and I had a stitch in my side. But, I'm glad I did it. I know where I need to start and how I need to get where I want my body to be.

When I first started this blog, I blogged a whole month of me running. I'm going to do that again. I'm going to run the rest of this month and into the end of April. In May, I will start up pilates again along with running, even if it's only once or twice a week. I remember how much running helped and how it liberated me and really got me in shape. I hope it will do the same this time around.

Here I have my run for today. I didn't really run 10 minutes straight, though that would have been amazing. No, I think I ran about 5 minutes straight with a 5 minute power walk. This was alternating. I had planned on trying to run for 20 or even 30 minutes, alternating between running and walking, but this is a very hilly area and I was beat fast. I'm also not very familiar with my neighborhood, so that didn't help much either.

Next time, I think I will try for earlier in the morning because it was kind of warm. I seem to run better when it's cooler outside. I think that's normal, but who knows.

I plan on following the Color Run plan, which I have done before and it is very successful.

I feel like going back to the beginning will be beneficial because it was so successful last time. I know what works for my body and I'm definitely going to do all I can to work with it. The only issue at this point is the terrain. I have to find a route that works for me and doesn't tire me out right away. I know I'll find one, it's just a matter of time.

Here I go!

March 4, 2015 - Revisited

I worked out! Yay! It was torture, and to be honest I skipped one of the videos. I really am not up for the 100 Burpee Burnout. That sounds like too much torture.

As promised, here is my sweaty pic:

That's 21 minutes of HIIT torture right there. And, even though I skipped one workout, I still had to do burpees. I hate those so much. Especially single-legged ones.

Good news, I feel so much better and happier and ready to kick my homework in the face!

I wish I had saved the Snapchat I took to send to my boyfriend because there was a bead of sweat right on my eyelid. It was gross, but kind of proved how hard I worked. However, you can still see me glistening here.

Well, I'm off to take a shower, settle into my sweats, and tackle my homework.

As a side note, I made my own logo/signature or whatever so I can just sign it here at the end of every post. I'm pretty excited.

Well, here I go!

March 4, 2015

So far, I have not missed a day of working out. It's still very hard for me to get up in the morning, especially Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Tuesdays are one of my busiest days -- my day on campus begins at 10 am and doesn't end until 5:30 pm. I usually stretch those days. It relaxes me and I feel like at least I've done something to reach my goal of becoming healthier.

I don't like getting up on Wednesdays because my day on campus doesn't begin until noon. It's very hard to get motivated when nothing starts at noon. However, I have things planned, like exercising and getting some homework done before I have to head to campus. That usually never happens, but I'm still working on it.

I haven't worked out today, but I plan to after class. I'll post after so that I can have something to make me commit to working out later today.

As promised, here is my monthly progress picture. I really don't want to post it, but I know I should. Having it here, staring at me, will hopefully get me in the groove to get back on track.

Here I am. I am not fond of this at all, but looking at it does make me want to go exercise right now. I know I am not fat, but I am not comfortable in my body, and I feel like that's one of the most important things about being a person. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see.

This is all the weight I've gained since I started graduate school. It's take a tole on me. So much so that two pairs of jeans I brought down with me don't even fit anymore. My goal is to be able to fit into those jeans. I don't have a specific time, but I know it takes about 12 weeks for the world to start noticing your body change. So, by April, I should be looking good. We'll see, I suppose.

Alright, I am going to drink the rest of my tea and get ready to go to campus. I'll post a sweaty picture of my workout later today.

Here I go!

March 1, 2015

This is the first day of my turn around. I worked out and it felt amazing. It hurt like a bitch, but felt so great.

My goal was to start up running again, but the weather had other plans. Snow for days! Very cold and I don't want to slip and hurt myself while running up and down all those hills here. So, I decided to give Blogilates another go.

This morning's workout focused on the butt, so I'm going to be very sore there later. I was sweating almost immediately and now I feel refreshed and ready to take on the day.

I'm starting to plan out my meals for the remainder of the week. I have a bunch of eggs that I'm going to hard boil and eat as part of my breakfast for the week. I feel very hopeful that this will work. I even made a weekly meal planner that I stuck on my fridge and I can use it to plan out my meals and hopefully will remind me to stay on track.

I still am very stressed and depressed, and I know that won't go away anytime soon, but I feel like I'm getting better and on the right path to where I want and need to be.

I'm going to outline my goals for this blog:

• Every month I will post a progress picture
• I may share some great recipes that I've found
• I plan on detailing my feelings of the moment and how my workout went every day
• I hope to blog every day, but if I don't, then I'm not going to get stressed about it

Sometime either today or later in the week, I'll post a progress picture. I don't want to, but I know that having it up here will help motivate me to continue working out.

I just need to eat well, get as much sleep as I can, not stress as much, and exercise. Easy, right?

Here I go!

Kelly-Rae

Trying to get back into this

It has been a very long time since I posted last.

I'm in graduate school, pursuing my master's in English, and I am busier and more stressed than ever. I have gained a lot of weight and I am not happy at all with my body. While this was going, I was doing great. I was running and exercising every day. Now, I find it very hard to get up in the morning because of all the work I have to do.

I don't really know how to get back into working out. I want to pick up running again and I want to work out every single day like I used to. One of my biggest issues is hunger. I am hungry all the damn time. It doesn't matter what I eat or how much of it, I am hungry very soon after. I've started taking an appetite suppressant, and that has helped a little, but not enough. I'm getting to the point where I really dislike food. I dislike eating. I've never been this way. I've always loved food and I've always enjoyed eating, but now that I am so busy and tired, I don't want to eat. It feel it takes away from precious homework time. I know that eating is very important to living a healthy lifestyle, but what happens when everything you eat doesn't work? What about then? I don't know what to do and I don't know how to handle it.

Another issue I have is fatigue. I wake up in the morning feeling just as tired as when I went to bed and I'm tired for most of the day. I don't want to do homework or lesson plan or clean or exercise because I just want to sleep. All day. Every day. For maybe the rest of my life. I know that depression runs in my family, and I've been depressed before, so I know that I am most likely depressed. I am far from home and my roommate, who was the best roommate I've ever had, moved out recently due to some life changes and I'm now living alone. It's new and different, and I kind of like it, however I'm lonely. I don't get out much because of my busy lifestyle and I know I'll feel guilty if I go out without all my homework being done. I don't have anyone to vent to who will really understand what I'm going through. That's what was nice in having a roommate who was a graduate student. Now, I come home to a messy apartment that I am too lazy to clean and nothing else. It doesn't give me much to feel motivated about.

I am stressed all the time. I am stressed about homework, about my teaching, about the fact I feel like I haven't made very many close friends, about being in a long distance relationship, about gaining weight, about being hungry all the time, about my messy apartment, about not accomplishing anything, about distancing myself from God, about my jeans not fitting. And probably a lot more. I don't know how to handle this stress. It overwhelms me just about every day and I find myself bursting into tears maybe every other day. I haven't found a church here because it's very hard to find one when you're so busy. I would like to say that's an excuse, but I fear that it's not. I should post what my week looks like on average sometime.

I hope that by turning back to this blog I will find some of my old motivation and get back on track. I don't know. Nothing so far has helped. It's very, very difficult and I honestly feel like I have no one to turn to. I know that my family will not understand and will just say that grad school is supposed to push you, or something like that. My friends who aren't in grad school will be sympathetic and caring and encouraging, but for some reason, that doesn't help me. And, now that I live on my own, I don't have that one person who I can vent to and who can help me through this. I didn't realize how much I relied on those interactions until now. And, yes, I have made friends here, but we're all so busy and I am so introverted that I don't actually want to go out to a bar to hang out. I want to say in in my PJs, maybe some wine, and some good food. I want to be able to vent to someone.

So, tomorrow, I am going to post my workout. I am going to post every workout until I get back on track and then some. I think I really need this to help me from spiraling down. I mean, really, what can it hurt?

Here I go!
Kelly-Rae