Run Time: 20:00
Distance: 1.93 mi.
Average min/mi: 10:24
Calories Burned: 189
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My body felt so heavy this morning and all I wanted to do was stay in bed and sleep. Even while running my body was heavy. I ran, but I didn't complete the run and I powerwalked part of the way. I've been feeling so discouraged. Not about running or eating well, but about getting my room unpacked and finding a job. I haven't really put in anywhere except for Huntington because I've been working on getting my room organized. I'm scared that Huntington won't call me back. I almost feel like my five years at LCSC was a waste of time. What's the point of getting a degree in something that I can't use? Why didn't I think of this before? Why didn't I get something more practical? All my friends' lives seem to be going great -- they are married, have kids, or are getting great jobs -- while I'm here. Unemployed. No boyfriend. Living with my parents. I'm just so tired of not getting what I want. No one wants to hire an English graduate. Apparently it's not something that's in demand. I've looked and I can't hardly find anything that pertains to my major. I just want someone to tell me it's going to be okay. I want someone to say that Huntington will call me and that I'll get this job. I know I have to apply for other jobs, and I will. I just really want this one. If I don't get it, I feel like I'm going to be miserable for the year.
I don't want to do anything today, but I have some lunch with friends. While I'm really looking forward to seeing them, I'm feeling ashamed that I haven't found a job yet and they both are so happy with their lives. I feel like I'm not going to bring much to the table.
I know I shouldn't be thinking this way. I know that I need to stay positive, but it's so hard sometimes. I just want to crawl back in my bed and forget that today ever happened.
Here we go.
Kelly-Rae
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